Book Writing Burnout
When you spend months putting together a book and poring over each chapter, each word, each phrase many times over, it can feel almost like relief when it’s done.
In my case, I’ve spent the last three months of my life chasing down stories from strangers of sexual assault, abuse, and harassment. The content is sometimes graphic and violent and draining, and the people who wrote the stories are true survivors and amazing people.
I have been incredibly grateful to the contributors to this book, which is what really allowed it to even happen.
As the process continued, I ended up with 56 stories from around the world. From people as young as 14 up to 72 years old. I have received them from both men and women, and from countries like Russia, Australia, Portugal, Spain, Denmark, and all over the US.
While the entire process has been a labor of love and I am self-funding this passion project, it has not been without moments of doubt, insecurity, and pain.
The compassion and empathy for so many who have been hurt has been unmatched by anything else in my life so far.
This book has given me so much more than I expected.
I am incredibly grateful I took on this project. It has changed me in some ways, and has certainly made me stronger and want to be more involved in activism and creating change and continuing the conversation.
More than anything, it has given me hope. So many have come together to create this book. So many have found catharsis in the telling of their stories. The outpouring of positivity and support is unending and amazing.
I spent six hours on Sunday finishing writing the introduction and conclusion to the book and then putting all 56 contributed stories into an order for the final book copy.
I started by doing a word count of each story. I then focused on putting them together in a way where it wasn’t superlong followed by superlong, and making sure to have the men’s stories interspersed throughout, as well as locations of the contributors spread out.
After six hours, I had the final book.
I sent it away and the editor is working on it now. It is out of my hands.
I felt relief. I felt exhausted.
As much as this book means to me, it has been a long process and I am often consumed with thoughts of the contributors, the editing, the cover designs, the marketing, the book launch.
I feel a bit burnt out.
On Monday, I ended up creating a lighter day for myself. Less work than normal Mondays, more time to myself to just relax and be.
I am so very excited and passionate about my #metoo book and what it means for the people who are a part of it.
And having a day to recharge allows me to focus back on it in a healthy way.
Don’t forget to just be and just take some time for YOU.